MOST DIFFICULT EVENT IN MY LIFE

MOST DIFFICULT TIME OF MY LIFE

WHEN MY SON CHRISTOPHER JOHN GENOVESE “GENO” DIED OF AN ACCIDENTAL OVERDOSE,

I FELT MY WORLD WOULD END. ALTHOUGH HE WAS 30 YEARS OLD WE STILL HUNG OUT TOGETHER DURING GOOD AND NOT SO GOOD TIMES. BY THAT I MEAN HE WOULD GO OFF THE WAGON AND TAKE PERCOCETS AT FIRST BECAUSE THE PAIN IN HIS BODY, MIND AND HEART WAS TOO MUCH TO HANDLE. NEEDLESS TO SAY HE WAS IN AND OUT OF SOBRIETY.

MY HUSBAND AND I TRIED TO HELP HIM. I WENT TO ALANON, A SUPPORT GROUP FOR FAMILY AND FRIENDS OF A SUBSTANCE ABUSER (DRUGS OR ALCOHOL) AND IT HELPED. I WOULD HEAR POWERFUL STATEMENTS SUCH AS ‘IF YOU BABY THEM YOU BURY THEM’

‘PRACTICE TOUGH LOVE’ ‘IT’S OK TO THROW THE ADDICT OUT OF YOUR HOUSE’

‘IT IS OK TO LET THEM CRASH IN YOUR HOME FOR A FEW DAYS, TEMPORARILY”

GARY AND I DID ALL THOSE THINGS BUT WE GOT EMOTIONALLY DRAINED AND WOULD GIVE IN, FEED HIM, LET HIM BORROW THE CAR, WE WERE AS SICK AS HIM SOMETIMES- THAT’S WHY IT IS CALLED A FAMILY ILLNESS.

TODAY HE IS DEAD. HE HAS BEEN GONE FOR OVER A YEAR AND MY HEART STILL ACHES AND URNS FOR HIS EARTHLY EXISTENCE- BUT HE IS GONE.

I WANT TO HELP AS MANY PEOPLE AS POSSIBLE TO FIGHT THIS DISEASE IF THEY HAVE IT.

GO TO 12 STEP MEETINGS, STAY AWAY FROM YOUR BUDDIES THAT ARE USING ALCOHOL AND DRUGS, KEEP BUSY, GO TO COUNSELING ANDVENT-BE HONEST ABOUT YOUR FEELINGS- MANY TIMES IT WORKS AND SOMETIMES IT DOESN’T. IN GENO’S CASE HE LOST THE CRAP SHOOT.HE HAD SO MUCH GOING FOR HIM. HE WAS AN ATHLETE, HAD A GREAT JOB AND BEAUTIFUL GIRLFRIEND INSIDE AND OUT- YET THE HEROIN AND FENTYNL HE MOVED ONTO WAS SO INVITING HE COULDN’T GIVE IT UP. IT TOOK AWAY THE PAIN AND YOU ENDED UP IN EUPHORIA-ONLY FOR A WHILE, THEN YOU NEED MORE AND MORE AND MOOOOOOOOORE

DRUGS UNTIL IT IS JUST MAKING YOU FEEL NORMAL. BUT GENO’S LIFE ENDED IN OUR DEN-SITTING ON THE FLOOR WITH HIS DOG, EVEN FRANKIE OUR GOLDEN RETRIEVER COULDN’T SAVE HIM-HE THOUGHT HIS BROTHER WAS SLEEPING.

SO I WROTE “HAT TRICKS FROM HEAVEN” GENO’S STORY, OUR STORY OF HAPPINESS, SADNESS AND STRUGGLING TO KEEP OUR BOY ALIVE.

THE BOOK IS COMING OUT LATE OCTOBER AND SOME OF THE PROCEEDS WILL GO TO PPEOPLE THAT ARE ADDICTED AND NEED HELP.

THANKS FOR READING MY BLOG—PEACE-LOVE-GODSPEED

KATE GENOVESE